She was always scared to walk in her heels...she always thought she would trip over..."impossible,i can't do it"...but it was her best friend who said..."obviously u can do it,u can always try!it's all in the mind!"...she saved pennies for months only to buy the black high heeled footwear which she saw at the mall...she was so excited!she would lock herself in her room and practise walking in them for hours...finally the day arrived...her farewell party!!!though she wasn't confident at first yet she managed it somehow...she was conscious but she remembered her friend's words...but...

..."Ah!!!bhaloi to parchhis...keno je nekami kortis?some people i tell u!!!"

She went back home after sometime and neatly kept her shoes in the rack...

"maybe this is where u belong!"

zzzzz......

A foggy afternoon...a cup of raw coffee...pieces of cake with burnt raisins and cashewnuts...seems like nothing better to do other than contribute to my adipose tissue...wrapped in my blanket i patiently turn the pages of an old story book remembering those days in school when we used to start off with giggles and then burst out laughing...but now these are just mere pages...they dont seem to 'excite' me anymore...my locks of hair aren't hoary as yet...hmmmmm...seems like there isnt the juvenile approach to life anymore...thousands of "?" seem to jostle in my mind but i shut my eyes, trying to be evasive...huh...this humdrum existence will drive me mad someday...

Number Busy!!!

Was feeling a bit jittery this morning..on top of that my mommy dear yelled at me...the usual stuff...no studies, too much of partying,cell phone...oh yes!cell phone...i agree...i always thought my mom to be this woman of peevish nature but at times she's right...guess it was a bad gaffe that i wheedled my mom into letting her buy me a cell phone...it's the same old story...swathe myself in a blanket and feign sleep, lock myself in the room and pretend to study...but what do i actually do???nothing!!!maybe continue with the occasional squabbles and since i'm no stoic the arguments seem to have no end...i'm sure my fingers can do something better than just type...at times i just stare at it even when i know it's useless...ughhh!!!i wish something goes wrong with my cell so that it goes for repair...for a month at least!!!till then my fingers can rest!!!

Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it...

If I could catch a rainbow,
I would do it just for you,
And share with you its beauty
On the days you are feeling blue

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own,
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone

If I could take all your troubles
I would toss them in a sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me

I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what i know best
A friend who's always there...

-Sydney Thacker-

"Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person; having neither to weigh the thoughts nor measure words, but to pour them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness, blow the rest away."

-George Eliot

Happy days are here again...but not for long...if only i could wait a little longer for the inevitable...but every end is for a new beginning...life moves on...but i cant help saying this...thank u friends for making me the person i am today...

Not words.Not the promises of love.The guarantees of fidelity.The impassioned vows of happily-ever-after.The lies...Just the happiness of each moment...

MISS sist(H)ER

"Kire ki chai tor?anything u want,just tell me,i'll send it!"

...thinking...

'Electronics,belts,sneakers,watches,shirts...& the list goes on...'

Dec17 oo:oo hrs
End of thought process...

"Can i have u back?are u ready to lend me a patient ear?"
...ur sister dear needs u...her voice isnt reaching out to others...it seems like her listeners are being flattered and fawned on by new voices...so before she starts behaving like a recluse come back!!!she's tired...like a defeated boxer who lies supine as he is counted out..."pick me up"she says...she wants to fight back...she wants to return to her genuine world where nothing is pretentious...not even her smile...she wants to share her stories with u, with a FRIEND...phew!just come back!!!

Past is Past!

14th dec...hmmmmm...rings a bell...wish i wasnt good with dates...wish two years ago this day never came...maybe i would have pretended not to realise things.as they died down would have...ahh forget it...hopefully someday it would be a day which would bring back a smile on my face like it happened then...but i wish the smile lasts forever!!!

p.s:i wish the colour of this post changes soon

Makeover Magic!

Ah!im just bored of the same old me...the same old haircut,the same old clothes,the same old shoes...i wish i was some alluring dark brown haired dark-eyed beauty...even if it's for a few days...but i wanna change the look of mine...it makes me happy...even a simple haircut(dont have the guts n the money of course to streak my hair!) :(...wanna be nattily dressed,wanna be nifty n feminine and if all that doesnt happen(n if i dont shed a few kilos of mine) i hope even buxom women are back in fashion!!!

Y can't i do it?

Have u ever tried having fish with a fork?n im not talking about the boneless ones which we can easily swallow without having to do nethin much....well that's what i tried after i saw my uncle doing the same..he was sitting on our sofa,holding the plate on one hand but happily managed it with the fork,the bones neatly separated.....but i failed.completely....i guess nothing better than ur fingers when it comes to a rui mach(rohu i guess) n a charapona(?)......

p.s:i cant even manage chow with chopsticks........:(

That's how it all started!

Well finally i've joined the blogger committee.wierd isn't it?was thinking of how i used to write thousands of crap in my diary...page after page of non sensical thoughts...when i used to flip through my own diary i couldnt believe it was me....how could i think that way?at times i just couldn't relate to it!if people read my diary maybe they'll think" she isn't all that good" or" maybe she isn't all that bad either"!!!!but now i've to think twice before i post any kind of crap in my blog.....actually i can & i will coz i can't do anything better..but yes somethings are just meant for the diary and its best left unsaid, rather unread!!!!!